My Two Cesarean’s
I’m not going to lie, I never wanted a Cesarean.
I wanted the natural (uncomplicated) vaginal birth, with the baby on my chest straight after and we’d have the special bonding moment then live happily ever after.
Well I have a Bicornuate Uterus so in my case, the above is NOT going to happen. Ladies reading who have a Bicornuate Uterus, don’t be freaked out, this is my situation, not everyone’s with a BU.
So my first son was born vaginally at 29+5 weeks (due to my BU), during the pregnancy a Sonographer assumed I would be having a Cesarean because of the shape of my Uterus which caught me off guard, but because that didn’t happen I just brushed it off.
Yet my next two pregnancies took the option out of my hands, both pregnancies were fairly similar, even though Mikey was a boy and Nicole was a girl. Both babies were small and breach which meant a lot of scans and check ups. The general consensus through both of those pregnancies were that the babies were unlikely to move out of the breach position due to the shape of my uterus, which was quite heartbreaking for me, because if I’m honest it’s not what I ever wanted.
But I had to give my head a bit of a shake and put the situation into perspective…all that really mattered is that my baby was born safely, so if a Cesarean was the way that had to be done than that’s what I’d do.
I’m going to be brutally honest (and again this is just my experience) the first Cesarean I had with Mikey, wasn’t too bad at first. I was more scared of the Epidural, but after having a breach baby laying in the most uncomfortable position in my body, it was quite nice to not feel anything, until they started to actually cut into me. So I thought you didn’t feel anything…wrong! You feel everything, but you don’t feel any pain. It’s sort of feels like someone doing the washing up in your tummy, so it’s a lot of gritting your teeth and pulling a cringe face, but after experiencing childbirth, this is the more peaceful and least painful way to deliver the baby.
The recovery time afterwards is what I underestimated, it didn’t help I slipped down the stairs as soon as I got home, but the pain in my scar was there for months afterwards. Sometimes it was real pain and sometimes it was being uncomfortable, like if my knickers were too low or trousers were too tight. It completely put me off ever having a Cesarean again, so I prayed that during my next pregnancy the baby wouldn’t become breach and I could go for a VBAC (Vaginal birth after Cesarean). As this was my first Cesarean, I had nothing to compare it to, but I was told my family that I showed my scar to and health professionals that my scar was really low and that was because of how low Mikey lay.
Then with Nicole, my inkling was right, she was breach and wasn’t budging. So a Cesarean was the plan again, I secretly hoped she would turn last minute, mainly because of the recovery time, I found it really hard with Mikey and then I only had a 10 month old Jack at home but this time I had two toddlers running around and the suggest you lift nothing heavier than your baby…slightly impossible.
So as I prepared myself for the worst, my Cesarean went well but I was surprised by the fact I now had two scars. Everyone I spoke to including the surgeon said he’d cut through the old scar so I’d have only one scar, so that’s what I was expecting, but apparently my old scar was too low, so now I had two. At first I was a bit gutted but actually as time went on I realised this recovery was completely different, I had some pain but nowhere near as bad as after I had Mikey, by the six week point I was completely pain-free.
Now Nicole is 15 weeks old and my scar causes me no problems at all. It goes to show that every experience is different, even in the same person. I heard so many horror stories and so many positive stories, it turns out that you have no idea how it’s going to be for you until you do it, the same as child birth, except that’s even more unpredictable.
If you’re expecting a Cesarean, try not to be freaked out by all the hype about how awful it is, even if it is painful for a while after, there is lots of support and it won’t last forever. Everyone is different and some people swear by having a Cesarean, so you’ve just got to see what happens for you.
If I have another baby I’ve been told I’d have to have a Cesarean to be safe and actually now I am happy with that. In the grand scheme of things it really doesn’t matter how babies get here as long as they get here safely.